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A report of Heiko Schwarz:

When I was a little child, I often wished my parents weren't around. Especially when they caught me fooling around and there was trouble.
At the age of 7, my mother died. I thought that it was my fault because I wished it. I kept this secret for years. This dramatic situation activated (at least) an SBS in the right-brain territorial areas, where testosterone production is also regulated. As a result of the activation, the scale shifts (see the topic "scale" and "territorial areas"), making one instantly more depressed.

That very day, while my father was busy with the incident, I was taken to my aunt who played a lot of nice harmonic sounding music from uncle's record collection to comfort me.

This music linked itself to the events and the activated territorial conflict.

Every time I heard a similar sounding song on the radio or anywhere else, I would get depressed and tend to tell everyone how bad the world was.
I grew up musically and always thought that others wouldn't understand this music because no one heard how sad the music sounded.

How techno music came up in the 90s was a blessing for me. because almost everyone in my age group was listening to techno. During that time, I always had techno cassettes with me and took every opportunity to play them.

I became really aware of this track when one evening, on the night shift, I read a case study in a 5BL book in which a woman always becomes very sad at the sound of an ambulance siren. Shortly after the break, my work colleague turned his stereo back on, and played just such a song, which pushed me heavily into depression. That evening, for the first time, I was able to trace the sound of the music back to that event 30 years ago. Then it fell like scales from my eyes.

The next morning, after work, I searched for this music on YouTube, and cried heavily while listening to this music, but was able to mentally decouple it. Since then, I can listen to such music without compulsively falling into depression.

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